Appease

Posted: June 10, 2011 in Emerson Challenge

‘The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them.’ – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.” What is ‘too scary’ to write about?

Nothing is too scary to write about, or to publish … we consider a 90% ‘attrition’ rate in the next eighteen months, envision what this can look like and as a start we replace the sweet comfort of ‘attrition’ with death, death of friends and family!

‘Just relax, drink it in’ as my friend J. sings, although she was probably expecting a different kind of interpretation of her lyrics. We attempt, when conversing with others, to speak of what we know. We also attempt to move the conversation along certain accepted guidelines, where it is safe to do so. We do not on the whole change subjects so rapidly that from a position of communal peace within our conversational meme a horror rips apart this fancy sheen and supplants a contortion of such Houdinic proportion that the other can offer nothing more than recoil and distaste. If they could hear you at all! Which in my experience is more than likely.

You are going to die, not a philosophy, not a given, in some none too near time frame but now, and not in the next 24 hrs where there can be an adrenelisation of information within the body, and an acceptance through brute force. But a you are gonna die very soon, and if you are lucky, yes lucky enough you will see a lot of your friends die too! And as a bonus we will throw in all manner of destruction of all you hold dear to accompany you on this journey. The immolation of our tokens of self worth, our sacred cows, the advancement of all of our ideals neglectfully thrown into the furnace alongside our tired, huddled masses. Can we write this? Can we share this? Is there something here that not only wants to celebrate the horror but to actually enjoin and increase its impact as a path of individual significance. This cry, this cry, once again; though the whole world shall burn, I will be heard … and this fear of not being invited to the party, this dry kitchen habit writ wet and scorched.

What is too scary to write about. Not writing about. Not sharing. Not being heard. a willingness that in order TO BE heard ALL must die, must bow before the superior sentience of the message.

And logically from this what is too scary to write about:

THIS … of course this; you are heard, then what?

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Emerson Challenge day # 9

http://ralphwaldoemerson.me/mary-jaksch

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